The 56th Mile of Life

Hello Wondering Reader,

In my life I have met many obstacles. I have had to stand up for people in rooms where they are not present. I have had to process the unthinkable. But there has always been one constant in my life. God. See me and god use to have a very different relationship, most of it being my fault, and other times I blame pain. But not once has he never not been on my mind. I know for a fact God loves me, and would never give up on me. I have already been bought and paid for. So how has my relationship with God Brought me to where I am today? How do I believe, love, and understand so wholeheartedly?

Without God I would not be here. There is a saying “God does not give you more than you can handle” another one is “God Never Fails”. He does not, it is that simple. Denzel Washington said it right “If the Devil is not bothering you, you must be doing something wrong. Because the Devil looks for people on his side to reward, Like a friend. But If everything feels like the Devil is taking it out on you, you are probably doing something right”. See, when we choose to do the right thing we have to weigh the consequences. Everything has a cause and an effect. But sometimes doing the right thing is hard.

It is not because a brave person does not have fear it is that, that person even afraid chose to do the bigger and right thing. When I was 21 years old I was sexually assaulted. For a really long time I could not understand how a person could do that to someone else. I was furious and for a really long time I blamed God for what happened to me. I was one out of many women, who never spoke up about such a traumatic event because I thought my silence could protect me.

Till one day God showed me the way. I had to learn not only how to forgive myself but also the person that hurt me. It was not easy I had to sit down with a psychologist and relive the events that had happened to me.  I did shadow work, music therapy, medicines, the whole nine yards. But something happened during my healing process I will never forget. I saw his family member come into my place of work. I was scared out of my mind and managed to hold my ground. She came right at me I had no idea what was coming next. That family member apologized for the way I had been treated and I found that God had done his work in the end. I got closure and I forgave all of it to him. I let go of that anger that I held on to for so long.

Sometimes in order to move forward you cut your losses, heal and stop infecting the same wound. God Shined a light into my life to bring life back out of me again and he has done it ever since. So, if you’re a Christian, pray out loud and with courage. He does not judge. But if your interested in learning more about God reach out through my website and I can point you in the right direction. But if you have no interest, that is okay too, I will pray for you.

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