The 56th Mile of Life

Hello Wondering Reader,

We would all do well to understand that fate has an uncanny ability to make surprises happen. For I myself have underrated fate a time or too. It always seems to send me on quite the adventures. So today ladies and gentlemen I am going to take you on a specific road, the art of fate and desire. Women know this particular skill set well, but so do men. With their quizzical smiles and drinks that feed the imagination. But today there is one struggling factor. Technology has made fools out of all of us. But it can also create a story like no other. See I was a woman who thought chivalry no longer existed! Because of technology. The Desire and achievement after going after someone you think, could give you a future.

But my story is somewhat unpredictable and down right Unbelievable. I always admired how writers who wrote historical period pieces could truly describe this seduction of succumbing to your desires and someone else’s. Of finding a connection like no other. The fairy tale ending that us little girls were raised on. But I have a secret, I have met that prince charming in my life. He is the heart and soul that even mine beats with.

When I was 17 years old, I got on a website called Chatroulette. Where I met that dark prince charming, see ladies he was the only one that was not in complete nakedness. I believe the words that set us on our course was even more funny “Please don’t leave I am not going to whip my **** out.” So, we sat, and he told me he was from England, I told him I was from America and a friendship came out of nowhere. We added each other on social media, and eventually life took place, and we went our own ways. But oh, fate said, “Hold my beer.”

I turned 23 years old and had went to my friend’s birthday party were I use to make a complete ass out of myself, I fancied the spirits. See J and her sister decided to make this a big one, so we took every single liquor bottle we had, poured it into a cooler, and made jungle juice. See back then when I use to drink, I had a habit of thinking I was a mermaid and would always end up in the pool, yes, I know I am demented. But after I got out of that pool, I quickly realized I needed to just find a place to die so I ended up camping out, beside a toilet and love was born.

As I sat contemplating how my body was going to make me regret my decisions that night, one person came across my mind, we will call him Holsten. See in my drunk state I had been scrolling Facebook and his status came up on my feed. I clicked and then the phone was ringing. At this point, I became a bundle of nerves because: one who would want to talk to a drunk girl, two, would he even remember me, and three I was at the lowest I had ever been. So, the phone rings and Holsten picks up, and like an idiot I hang up immediately. He calls me back and I answer.

He begins “Hello” and I reply “Hello, I didn’t think you would pick up.” He smiles and the conversation still has not stopped to this day. Holsten sat there and listened to me. Only listened, I told him about everything that had passed, and he sat there and listened and chose to be a lifeline and a friend when I needed it. Holsten did the one thing a human being can do to bring life back into someone, he listened. After that night we continued to talk every day about our lives and our work. The mistakes we made and how to do better. We leaned on one another in a way most people, would have thought was crazy. In the midst of it all we fell in love. Today, Holsten and I have grown together, we both have matured beside one another. The way we met and fell in love was one of the most romantic ways of today. It was not based on physical contact but only words and listening and loving each other and leaning on one another. The distance is lonely, but when you absolutely love someone, you find a way to make it work. We dream together. In a way I feel as if we are the last dreamers left. I fell completely in love with all of him, not just the good, but the bad. Even though it is not like a normal relationship we found a way to love each other completely.

See, even fate takes advantage of moments of stupidity and can turn it into something you never thought possible. I have loved this man a majority of my life, everyday he is in it he makes me smile and shows me love that I have never felt before. But our story is not easy. It is not a fairytale; it is real life and there are obstacles. But what makes our love strong is the connection and strength we have to be with one another. A relationship is not going to be perfect it takes work and unconditional love to love someone even when they can not love themselves because they have been through so much. Some one asked me how I knew that Holsten was the person I wanted to spend my life with and my reply was simple “Because my soul would miss him even if I never would have met him because everyday since that very first meeting I have only thought about him, and everyday after he is gone I will still think about him, and in every moment of happiness we share I never want to forget him.” .  To not be with the person you love feels like a pain that leaves a hurting scar on your heart. So, to have that love and touch it, feel it, connect with it, it is seductive. Like a moth to a flame each and every person on this earth tries to find it. It is the ultimate gift. You can not take any amount a valuable material items with you when you leave this world, but you can take Love, Memories, strength, courage, honesty, and your soul with you. Never underestimate the higher powers of life or you may find Fate will teach you a lesson as well.

This post is dedicated to my love, the one that has supported me on this journey, my heart, my joy.

Always,

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